Playing the Waiting Game

I haven’t posted in nearly a week, and there is a very good reason for that.

I’m angry.

My scale has been stuck between 160.5 and 159.0 for 2 weeks now and I’ve been doing everything right. And even while it has been stuck, I continued to do everything right. And what is worse, my fears started to become my reality. The question that has lingered in the back of my head for years, “What if I can’t lose weight?” began to feel like it might be true.

It sounds ridiculous, but since I’ve already had that thought in my head, and I have been doing everything right, I started to think it was a possibility. I mean, I run at least two miles every day, I eat under 1200 calories and 20 carbs per day. Scientifically, it seems that there is no reason I shouldn’t have dropped at least two to three pounds in two weeks!

And that is when a second question started forming in my head. If it’s true that I can’t lose weight, then why am I even trying?

And I started to verbalize these thoughts with my husband. My husband loves me so much that he actually listens to me when I talk or ramble or complain. He remembered all of the things I was saying 6 weeks ago when I started Keto and he began to repeat them to me.

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He started talking about all the extra energy I have. He reminded me of how much better I feel about myself and how the long term goal was not weight loss, but a healthier body. He also pointed out with as much activity that I do, I may be putting on some muscle, which obviously weighs more than fat.

And this week, he decided to commit to the Keto life, too. (He’s cooking steaks and sauteed cauliflower for dinner, right now!)

Also, I was talking with my friend and co-worker, Jeremy who is also living a low-carb lifestyle, and he was explaining that in some people, when they are on a low carb diet, their fat cells will shrink, but will retain water.

So, I’ve decided to wait.

I’m waiting for my fat cells to decided to let go of the water they are holding. I’m also waiting for my new scale to get in from Amazon, which will not only tell me my weight, but my body fat percentage.

And while I wait, I’ll keep resisting carbs and keep on running. It’s not about how much I weigh by any certain date, it’s about living healthy every day.